avoidant
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pretty nice black-n-white flash

got bitten by xiaohei on friday!
who say guinea pigs dun bite!
grr... stupid pig

walked alot on sat
went ps to get dunno-wat-tix for some idiot
return empty-handed; tix all given out
walked all the way from ps to ck tang
tired sia
did some shoppin wif dar in the evening

a sunday feeling real darn bored at home

sianz
worried bout my finance
dunno when will the bloody 600-cut-down-to-450 allowance from the bloody-cheater-i2r b credit into my bank
very in need of money
need to settle overdue-to-b-due-on-30-sep-school-fees, broadband bills, insurance bills, phone bills
arghhh

My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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rainy day sux
i dun like outdoor activities on rainy days, not even walking
i rather snuggle in my cosy bed
a trip out for lunch
got myself all wet... even wif umbrella
very wet below...
opps... my knees n below
brrrrrrR.. *cold*

You're living the movie Event Horizon!
?? Which Horror Movie Are You Living ??
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the pix r nice

Peace
?? Which Angel Or Demon Are You ??
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not v true
but the pix r nice

You're like a werewolf!
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great quiz
pix r nice

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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juz anything to get me in paradise will do

You are Wrath/Anger!
Wow... who got you so mad huh?? You have serious anger issues!! with a rage that seems somewhat deadly, and a temper that is easily raised, you are by far the scariest sin. You tend to let the little things get to you, and are stressed fairly easily - and woe be it to any of your enemies. On the positive side, you're independent, powerful and a definite leader, if you could just control your moods!
Congratulations on being the toughest!! ...and the most independent of all the 7 deadly sins!
?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??
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m i mad
i m mad

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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is death a easier way out
to die is hard
courage is needed

Your: Angry eyes.
Chill out dude! No need to be so pissed! Sure lifes tough but you gotta deal.
Your one hell of a ass-kicker and nver let anyone get close to you.
What type of eyes do you have?
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but i like this

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season. But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and independant. You have an air of power around you - and that can sometimes scare people off. You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you rarely let people in if you can help it. You can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily you could be the leader of many. You tend to be negative, and hard to relate to, but you give off a relaxed image despite being insecure - and secretly many people long to be like you, not knowing how deep the Winter season really is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of seasons :)
?? Which Season Are You ??
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i should b a mixture of autumn n winter


You're warm, and the most approachable. You have that gentle prescence about you. People can relate to you, and find you easy company. However it's likely you've been hurt in the past and it has left you scarred so things can become rather chilly with you at times. Being the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy and loyal to your friends but prone to depression and negative thinking.

terrible day to start wif

things betta meeting dar for breakfast
thanx for the sandwich

mayb the sky decide to feel sorry for me n rain heavily
n been pondering whether to get mc or go i2r
final decision: to go i2r to stone

thanx to dar for her umbrella
got to office not too very wet

-_-
shoes n jeans wet
mood bad
hopefully to finish the 2nd abstract by today
though i dunno how to concentrate wif such foul mood

at the start of every fucking single day,
the bitch is always there to fucking ruin the rest of my day

wat the fuck has i done wrong?

i swear to b back as a vicious ghost after i die
****** ****** ****** ****** ****** ******
p.s.
hey old friend, u tick me off at the wrong time.
mayb sorry
if u understand me enuf
u wun b angry
****** ****** ****** ****** ****** ******
too mani things gathering up in me
too mani pressure gathering up in me
too mani frustrations gathering up in me
afraid of force hiding deep inside of me that might explode anytime
i'm a walking timebomb
i dun fear u
i fear me
****** ****** ****** ****** ****** ******

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handle their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temperand always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being wilful again.

Her : "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."
Him : "I don't have time that day."
Her :"Humph!"
Him : "Huh?"
Her : "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."
Him : "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
Her : "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her.! "
Him : "No."
Her : "Just this once?"
Him : "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

First day. She "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer,refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence".

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day. She conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."

He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day. Night. On the Bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him : "We need to talk."
Her : "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
Him : "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him :"Let's get a divorce."

She did not believe her ears.

Him : "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him : "She's a nice girl."

Her tears fell.

Him : "She has a good personality too."

She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.

Him : "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."

She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.

Him : "She loves me truly. "

She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"

Him : "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.

Him : "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"

Her : ".....!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.

It's a nicely taken photo of herself. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

in pain
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[edit]
hamster passed away NOT XIAOHEI
XIAOHEI = GUINEA PIG
XIAOHEI's KICKING, ALIVE, PLAYFUL!!!
dun curse him!!!
[/edit]

rushed to dar's house

back at office

to b doing abstracts

after lunch, blur blur gong gong take bus
overshot my heng mui keng bus stop
think too tired; sleepy; blur

trying to rush thru the abstracts
ack...
the gerz r bout 1 abstract ahead of us

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a total mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

came upon this story;
translated from a korean love story
***

Doll

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.

I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we
went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with
him.

Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my
love for him.

And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each
other in different ways.

I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there
were so many other girls.

To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just
another girl?

"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie??"I asked.

"I can't"

"Why? You need to study at home??" I felt disappointment
grabbing me.

"Going to meet a friend?"

He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.

To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word love only came out from my mouth.

Since I knew him, I had never heard him say i love you?
before.

To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued
till 100 days.. 200days..

Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a
doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why.

Then one day...

Me: Um, Jin, I ?

Jin: What? don't drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Jin: erm.. just take this doll and go home.

That was how he ignored my three words and handed me
the doll.

Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,
one by one.

Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.

When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him,
and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.

But then, lunch passed, dinner passed.. and soon the sky was
dark... he still didn't call.

It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.

Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me
and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of my
house.

Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin?

Jin: Here.. take this?

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What's this?

Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it
to you now. I'm going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?

Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had
happen.

Then I shouted.

"Wait!!"

Jin: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me?

Jin: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.

But he just said simple cold words and left.

"I don't want to say that I love someone so easily, if you
are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.

That was what he said. Then he ran off.

My legs felt numb and I collapsed to the ground. He
didn't want to say it easily?

How could he?

Maybe he is not the right guy for me...

After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just
crying.

He didn't call me, although I was waiting.

He just continued handing me a little doll every morning
outside my house.

That's how those dolls piled up in my room everyday.

After a month, I got myself together and went to school.

But what made the pain resurface was that I saw him on
a street with another girl?

He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed
me.

I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my
room, and tears fell.

Why did he gave these to me?

Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls.

In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.

Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.

He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.

I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.

I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him,

that it's going to end.

Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?

I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happen
and joking around.

Soon, he held out the doll as usual?

Me: I don't need it.

Jin: What? why?

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't
want to see a person like you again!

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike
other days, his eyes was shaking.

"I'm sorry." He apologized in a tiny voice.

He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll.

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just
throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.

Then...

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

"Jin! Move! Move away!"I shouted.

But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the
doll.

"Jin, move!"

HONK~!!

"Boom!"That sound, was terrifying.

That's how he went away from me.

That's how he went away without even opening his eyes to
say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness
and the sadness of losing him.

And after spending two months like a crazy person,
I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we
started going out.

I remembered the days I spent with him and started to
count the days when we were in love.

One, Two, three...

That was how I started to count the dolls.

Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty
five...

It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.

I hugged it tightly, then suddenly,

" I love you~, I love you~"

I dropped the dolls,shocked.

i... lo..ve.. you???

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

" i love you~ I love you~"

It can't be!

I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.

"i love you~"

"i love you~"

"i love you~"

Those words came out non-stop.

I love you.

Why didn't I realize that?

That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.

Why didn't I realize that he love me this much?

I took out the doll under the bed and pressed its stomach,

that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.

It had his blood stain on it.

The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much...

"Do... Do you know what today is? We've been loving each
other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't
say I love you.. since I was too shy... If you forgive me and
take this doll, I will say that I love you everyday...till I die..
Jo...I love you...

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked
god, why do I only know about all this now?

He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last
minute...
***

omg
cant believe THIS!!!

heard a famaliar song on wkrz
remix of "take away the color" by Ice MC
come to think bout it
Ice MC eurodance music are few of the dance tracks tat were introduced to me during my sec sch days
1st few dance tracks i 1st heard

[220903 monday]
din do much abstracts
oni printed full set of perl notes which takes quite a few hours to finish printing n binding
had seoul garden at jp
full
tired sleepy
my eyes seems swollen; even bending down cause them to hurt, esp my left eye
SLeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeePppp

*** ***
no racism
let musik b the international communication
juz dance
*** ***
One, and a two, and a three, and a four
It is I, man, I come and I knock on your door
You'd better let me in cause I full a fashion and
I come with a little rythm fi make you dance on

Ina the club and ina the party
Everybody dance, they're feeling harty
Whiggle your body and wave your hands and
Jump around ina style and pattana

Whether you're black and whether you're white
When you're ina the party you fi feel allright
Bassline pumpin', gyal them jumpin'
Everybody in the party lookin' for something

Some of them a look this, some of them a look that
Some a look gyal and even some of them a look man
Level vibration they're ina the dance, so
Come crowd and people, just jump and prance

Take away the colour, erase away the pain
Let's all live together, we're all the same
Open up you hearts and open up your minds
Free to be as one, just about that time

I to the C to the E to the M to the C
I see come crowd and people follow me
With the rythm and the way that we whiggle and me wine
With the words make you dance and move you behind

So wipe you farrid if you'ead a sweat an
Drink a beer and find the action
In the vicinity you have the ability
Dash away the coke and dash away the ecstasy
*** ***
MUSIC IS THE VIBE
SO OPEN UO YOUR EYES
TIME IS RUNNING OUT
SO FIND THE FEELING

BOOM DIGGY DIGGY DIGGY BOOM DIGGY BANG
BOOM DIGGY DIGGY DIGGY BOOM DIGGY BANG

IN MEK ITALIAN DE SPANISH AN DE MEXICAN
YES GOD PUT PAN DE EARTH ALL KIND OF MAN
JAPANESE GERMAN AN COLUMBIAN
CINESE AND DE RUSSIAN AN DE AFRICAN
AMERICAN FINNISH AN CANADIAN
DUTCH AN DE SWEDISH BRAZILIAN
TO THE SIRIAN THE INDIAN AN JAMAICAN

TOO MANY PEOPLE DEM A TALK' BOUT PEACE
BUT DE WAR INA DE WORLD MAN IT JUST CYA CEASE
BOOM DIGGY DIGGY DIGGY BOOM DIGGY BANG
UNITY A DE BOND AN YOU KNOW DAT STRONG
WHEN YOU TAKE A LOOK PAN DE TELEVISION
NUFF GUNSHOT AND BLOOD DEH PAN NUFF PROGRAMME
LEVEL VIBE LEVEL AN YOU KNOW DAT CYA WRONG TRUE

THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THAT WE LIVE TODAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY
HOW SOME PEOPLE PLAY

THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THAT WE LIVE TODAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY

BOOM DIGGY DIGGY DIGGY BOOM DIGGY BANG
MILK AN HONEY DEH INA EVERYLAND
BUT A WHO HAVE IT ALL DAT A DE POWER MAN
AN DEM DON'T GIVE A DAMN' BOUT DE SITUATION
DE HOMELESS DE JOBLESS OR DE CONFUSION
INA BOSNIA LORD ME KNOW SEH DEM WRONG
MEK DE FUTURE LOOK GOOD FI ALL DE YOUTH MAN
TO COME THROUGH

THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THAT WE LIVE TODAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY
HOW SOME PEOPLE PLAY

THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THAT WE LIVE TODAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY
THINK ABOUT THE WAY
*** ***

"When Doves Cry" (by Prince)
How could you just leave me standing,
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe you're just too demanding.
Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold.
Maybe you're just like my mother.
She's never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like,
When doves cry.

Which 80's Song Fits You?
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You are a beserker.
You charge into everything head first, you swing first, ask questions later. You have a blood lust. You kill anything and everything in the battle field. People run in terror of the sight of you. You use a large two handed sword.

What type of Swordsman are you?
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walking/limping ard
toe still hurts

din sleep well last nite
some stupid neighbour keep knocking around for the whole of the nite
can even feel the trembling
even though is living a storey bove her

woke up a little more earlier to get zhui kueh
but it wasnt good.. ack

caught in the act wif something by a "neighbour"
damn... their stupid mouth r going to spread words like fireforest?!
juz hope not

slack in the office
"seen" not doing work
echo isnt very satisfied wif the 1st abstract (i guess... wateva.. she's a sexist)
juz printed the 2nd abstract.. well dunno when will do it though.. heh
a stack of 50 pages!! ack...
juz bind them up...

when will i start work?
sianzZ.. sianzZ.. sianZZ
soon... i guess... soon
ZzzzZZ

[210903]
not pleasant day to start wif when i see their stupid face (again) though i oni stepped out from my cave in the noon
glad to have dar to keep me company
watched the 1st 3 episodes of QIAN NU YOU HUN wif dar =) nice
went over to attempt to trim Xiao Hei's nails
but called off (due to unable to catch him)
wondering if should get cherie's guinea pig to keep him company
n wondering if should get him a brick to allow him diy his nails
very glad that Xiao Hei is "finally left wif no choice but to eat his newly-introduced guinea pig's food"
had went pet safari on thur (i think) to get him food, house, food bowl etc
took quite a few days.. fro thur till sun then he start eating the newly intro guinea pig food
that fella had actually like gourmet brand of hamster food n even ignoring his pellets
finally he gave in,
lucky.. still tot hav to give away the 2 quite new pax of guinea pig food
heh... sorry cherie... no more to give u liaoz.. (i guess) unless that fella go on strike again

i went home wif a BLOODY toe!!! =(
injured self n toe bleed like crazy... arghhh

[200903]
not pleasant day to start wif
nevertheless, got dar breakfast

then i've got
the drama me tryin hard to watch every wkday at 2245
now i dun hav to worry.. hah

thanx for the gift to cheer me up

being showered wif ur tlc is the best present/gift

porn sites!
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6

the day (yesterday) is over
the rest of the day of yesterday was fine =)

going to sleep soon...
Zzz...

Hazardous Materials Data Sheet

Element: Woman
Discoveries: Adam
Atomic Mass: Accepted as 55kg, but known to vary from 45kg to 225kg

Physical Properties
1. Body surface normally covered with film of powder and paint
2. Boils at absolutely nothing - freezes for no apparent reason
3. Found in various grades ranging from virgin material to common ore

Chemical Properties
1. Reacts well to gold, platinum and all precious stones
2. Explodes spontaneously without reason or warning
3. The most powerful money reducing agent known to man

Common Use
1. Highly ornamental, especially in sports cars
2. Can greatly aid relaxation
3. Can be a very effective cleaning agent

Hazards
1. Turns green when placed alongside a superior specimen
2. Possession of more than one is possible but specimens must never make eye contact

Imagine a clear blue sky without a cloud in sight. Just thinking about it should give your spirits a little lift. Now turn your mind's eye down to survey the landscape. Which of the following scenes feels most calming and relaxing to you?

1. A white snowy plain.
2. A blue seascape.
3. A green mountain.
4. A field of yellow flowers.

[The scene you pictured contrasted against that clear blue sky reveals a hidden talent that resides in the depths of our untroubled mind.]

1. A white snowy plain.
You are blessed with a special sensitivity that allows you to comprehend situations at first glance and decipher complex problems without needing any proof or explanation. You have what it takes to be a clear-sighted decision maker and even something of a visionary. Always trust your first intuitions; they will guide you well.

2. A blue seascape.
You have a natural talent for interpersonal relations. People respect your ability to communicate with others and the way you help bring diverse groups together. Just by being around, you help others work more smoothly and efficiently, making you an invaluable member of any project or team. When you say, "Nice job. Keep up the good work," people know you mean it. So it means that much more to them.

3. A green mountain.
Your gift is for expressive communication. You always seem to be able to find the words to express the way you feel, and people soon realize it's exactly how they were feeling, too. They say that joy shared is multiplied, while shared grief is divided. You always seem able to help others find the right side of that equation.

4. A filed of yellow flowers.
You are a storehouse of knowledge and creativity, bursting with ideas and almost infinite potential. Keep attuned to the feelings of others and never stop working on building your dreams, and there is nothing you cannot achieve.

You are standing in front of a painting at an art museum, hands clasped behind your back as you try to take it in, when a total stranger comes up alongside you and says something to you. Which of the following does the stranger say?

1. "Isn't that a beautiful picture?"
2. "What do you think of this painting?"
3. "Excuse me, do you have the time?"
4. "You know, I happen to be a painter myself."

[In this imaginary scenario, the words the stranger spoke actually reflect how you react in chance encounters and when meeting others. Your answer reveals what kind of impression you make when meeting someone for the first time.]

1. "Isn't that a beautiful picture?"
Your friendly and positive nature creates a great first impression on almost everyone you meet. Your only concern should be that people may not take you seriously at first.

2. "What do you think of this painting?"
You're the type who likes to feel out the other's temperament before committing yourself to anything. People can sense that hesitancy, and it may color their reactions to you. You won't step on any toes with your cautious approach, but you may end up living on the people's terms.

3. "Excuse me, do you have the time?"
To half the world you seem like an all right sort, but to the other half you look just a little strange. You create a first impression of living life at your own pace and maintaining an individuality that some would call eccentric. You don't place much importance on what others may be thinking or feeling. For better or worse, therein lies the secret to you.

4. "You know, I happen to be a painter myself."
On first meeting someone, you come across as a little bit nervous and overeager. Maybe you're just trying too hard to be liked, but the harder you try, the worse impression you make. Don't worry so much about making people think you're great - they'll like you better if you just loosen up and relax.

One day a blue bird suddenly flies through a window into your room and is trapped. Something about this lost bird attracts you, and you decide to keep it. But to your surprise, the next day the bird has changed clorfrom blue to yellow! This very special bird changes color again overnight - on the morning of the third day it is bright red, and on the fourth it turns completely black. What color is the bird when you wake up on the fifth day?

1. The bird doesn't change color; it stays black.
2. The bird turns back to its original blue.
3. The bird turns white.
4. The bird turns golden colored.

[The bird that flew into your room seemed like a symbol of good fortune, but suddenly it changed color, making you worry that happiness would not last. Your reaction to this situation shows how you respond to difficulties and uncertainty in real life.]

1. Those who said the bird stays black have a pessimistic outlook.
Do you tend to believe that once a situation goes bad, it never really returns to normal? Maybe you need to try thinking, If this is as bad as it gets, it can't get any worse. Remember, there's no rain that doesn't end and no night o dark that there's no dawn the next day.

2. Those who said the bird turns blue again are practical optimists.
You believe that life is a mix of good and bad and that it doesn't pay to fight against that reality. You accept adversity calmly and let things run their course without undue stress or worry. This outlook lets you ride out the waves of adversity without being swept away.

3. Those who said the bird turns white are cool and decisive under pressure.
You don't waste time on fretting and indecision, even when a crisis develops. If a situation gets too bad, you feel it's better to cut your losses and look for another route to your goal rather than getting bogged down in needless grief. this proactive approach means that things seem to just naturally go your way.

4. Those who said the bird turns golden can be described as fearless.
You don't know the meaning of pressure. To you, every crisis is an opportunity. You might be compared with Napoleon, who said, ". . . impossible: the word is not French." But be careful not to let your boundless confidence get the best of you. It's a very fine line between fearless and foolhardy.

You're walking down the street, thinking of other things, when you stumble into a garbage can on the sidewalk and knock it over. What comes spilling out from under the lid?
1. Nothing comes out - the can was empty.
2. A pile of loose trash spills out onto the street.
3. Apples cores, chicken bones, and other raw garbage.
4. A well-tied black plastic garbage bag.

[In your carelessness you overturned a garbage can, dumping out something that had been neatly shut away and exposing for all the world to see. Your image of the can's contents reveal things inside you that you try to hide from public view. ]

1. Nothing comes out - the can was empty.
People who gave this answer tend to live their lives without making displays or false pretenses. What you see is what you get. It's this simple honesty that gives them their charm.

2. A pile of loose trash spills out onto the street.
Those of you who said the can was full of loose trash may seem to be straightforward and forthright to others but actually have a pile of unexpressed feelings locked up within. You may notice these feelings only as general sense of frustration, but when you think about it, aren't there places where you've been holding back from saying the things you really feel?

3. Apples cores, chicken bones, and other raw garbage.
People who imagined a pile of kitchen waste are suppressing their appetites and the natural desire for food. Maybe you're on (or just avoiding) a diet. Or trying to save money by cutting back on eating expenses. Whatever the case, it's taking its toll on you. There's no need to overdo it, but it might do you good to spend a well-earned night out at a restaurant with friends.

4. A well-tied black plastic garbage bag.
People who saw a neatly tied garbage bag has a strong sense of self-control. Maybe too strong. You hate to show weakness or make complaints - your pride won't allow it. But letting others know how you really feel is no sign of weakness. Loosen up the drawstrings and let in some air before all that garbage goes bad and starts to smell.

shittiest day in my life
[early in the morn]
kena CBCB
CB lah!!
F.U.C.K.
yes FUCK!!!
damnit!!!

shittiest day in my life
[later in the morn]
my love song cd lend to 1 of stupid gerz
after mani mani months finally return to me
N I GOT MY DISC SPOLIT!!
k.. actually is juz one song havin prob
BUT IT'S ONE OF MY FAV SONG!!!!
argh!!
stupid ger!!!

shittiest day in my life
[lunch time]
kena delayed for lunch
went over to find dar for lunch
along the way dunno where
SOMETHING shitty happened
i met dar, she screamed "wat's that on ur shirt?! that's bird ####!!"
me: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how could it be?
it's on my chest, juz below my neck
n i dun even know bout it!!!
wonder how did that happen?!? @#$*&#%
w/o me knowin or even feel it!!!

wat's next for rest of the day?!
E N O U G H ! ! ! ! ! !
i hope the stupid things of the day hav come to an end
E N O U G H ! ! ! ! ! !
no more stupid things happening for the rest of the day
no more stupid things happening for the rest of the week
no more stupid things happening for the rest of the month
no more stupid things happening for the rest of the year
no more stupid things happening for the rest of the years

raining heavily
ack
damn
shit shat shut

finally 11am liaoz
lunch time an hour more to go
havent done anything yet
no mood
only blog-surfing
Zzz

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i've been in the office for sooo long
time check: 10:08
oni bout one hour has passed!!
damn time passed reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal sloooooooow

listening to some love songs
a cd of quite some of my fav songs
oni got it back from one of the stupid gers
haha
i typing this behind their back!
cant listen to techno/trance
they dun like.. damn
i dun care
i'm gonna play them loud later

i like to be touched in my heart;
touch me!
touch my heart

i like to be in a trance
TRANCE
yeaaah

total screwed up morning to begin wif
still over that bloody letter
FUCK!
glad to open up the door n see my dar outside wif breakfast
everything brighten alittle more
now in office
stoning
no mood to start work yet
though had oredi open all necessary windows to start
i'm opening more windows surfing the webbie n chatting up wif fren
he's going tw nxt month for ict
good thing or bad
he says a break from work
good for him
i need a break from home
i wanna move out
i'm tired
i guess i'll probably b dead if my dar isnt wif me all this while
all thanx to her
she's the reason that i survive
nothing mushy
no mushy crap
these r true
thanx dar

trying to find lyrics for:
"Here In My Heart";
"Falling For You"

"dun stare at me,
i'll stare back at you
till u feel uneasy"
this goes out to bloody idiots who nv see loving couple before...

Are you the scientific or artistic brain?
You're dominated by your right brain, which makes you the artist. The degree in which you're dominated by the artistic brain depends on your score. The higher your score is, the more dominate this side of the brain is.

Not only are you highly creative, but you're also very emotional with a tendency toward sadness and despair. You have great spatial ability and are good at recognizing patterns. You would be at your best in a creative field such as graphical art, creative writing, poetry, music, drama, photography, etc.

Though the left brain has given man the means of survival, the abilities you possess to create and inspire has given humanity a reason to survive.

"U ALL havent done UR system"
wahh.. draw line.. u all referring to me n yingliang
great huh...
wonder if should we even be doin all this data cleanin
dunno izzit that WE r doin UR job as well
stupid gerz
i juz cant tolerate them!

got the abstracts back hopin to look thru them
but wat the hell...
haben even touched it since i last contact it back at office
i'm hooked at this stupid sq box again!
i should b hatin it very much
been starin at one since bout 8.30 in the morn til 6 in the evening
back at this stupid place, i'm hidin in my room, starin at this stupid sq box again
shouldnt b doin this
but wat on earth! i'm still facin it!
eyes hurt starin at it! arghh

:dar, wif u ard, u make my world bright n beautiful

[160903]
breakfast wif dar to brighten my day

echo seems very stressed up w our project
hope she wun fall
if not there goes our proj too!
seriously it's been hard on her too

the oni indian food i like, i guess is juz roti prata... the rest.. i couldnt take it.. ack... Eeee

still havin commotion over that damn warning letter from skool bout attendance

lucky enuf to hav dar around, been cheerin me for the past few days
all thanx to u
sharksfin soup is the greatest food i've tasted
really really fortunate really really lucky

was quite early for attachment today
cos had woken up earlier to have breakfast wif dar =)
vegetarian bee hoon
the 1st one to reach office...
always hav prob trying to unlock the door
bout 9+ echo came along...
ack she had stationed herself in our room
no more slacking; playing game; stoning liaoz
bombed me wif more new ways to do our current project
quite confusing enuf
she SHOULD have discussed all these right from the start of our proj
we've wasted months working on useless stuffs
n now hav to try rushin thru abstracts; filtering them; data cleaning them;
n finally programming stuff: PERL
anyone know PERL?
need help here!!
will b tryin to do some research (when free)...

damn
missed genom lecture on 20th aug
kena warning letter for them...
big commotion; kena cow father cow mother

lucky to have dar to keep me company n cheer me up earlier on

I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need

I love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on A new beginning
A reason for living A deeper meaning

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish to send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure
in the certainty That we are surrounded
by the comfort and protection of
the highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need

I love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

TAKE ME TO STATE OF TRANCE
TO LIVE LIFE ANOTHER CHANCE

From the very beginning, girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy, saying that it has got to do with family background, & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrelled very often. Though the girl loved the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the gal often vent her anger on him. As for him,.. he only endured it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the gal: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged. The gal went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it was hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the gal was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. when she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. she had lost her voice....

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.. it's still just silence cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, countless of phonecalls,.. all the gal could do, besides crying, is still crying.... The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the gal learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing a invitation card for the guy's wedding. the gal was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her.

He used sign language to tell her "I've spent a year to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The gal finally smiled.

[911]
been reporting quite late for work recently
it's oni the 1st wk
but realise i'm alittle bit climbing over their head juz because they say time is quite flexible
heh.. but physically cant really help it
juz too tired to go too early or exactly on time..

noon time 1600 til 1800 had some mid-autumn festival celebration over at i2r
had some refreshment

think i'm falling alittle bit sick liaoz
having alittle of flu n sore throat

night time, went clementi woods to carry lanterns n do some vandalism wif dar
heh.. playing wif sparkles n candles n lanterns
best zhong qiu jie, i guess... cos mayb cant really recall when was the last time i celebrate this festive

[12/09/03]
late for work again..

groove coverage appearing at sos tonite...
wish i could go

*stone mood*
work to do...
sianz

A radio station in Australia recently ran a phone-in competition to find the most embarrassing moments in listeners lives. The following are the Final four place getters:

4th place
"While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy & started to run amuck. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust & annoyance from other patrons. I told her that if she didn't start behaving herself right now, she would be punished. To my horror, she looked me in the eye & said in a voice just as threatening, "If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!". The silence was deafening, after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing! I mustered the last of my dignity & walked out of the bank with my daughter in tow. The last thing that I heard as the door closed behind me were the screams of laughter."

3rd place
"It was the day before my 18th birthday. I was living at home, but my parents had gone out for the evening, so I invited my girlfriend over for a romantic night alone. As we lay in bed after making love, we heard the telephone ringing downstairs. I suggested to my girlfriend that I give her a piggy-back ride to the phone. Since we didn't want to miss the call, we didn't have time to get dressed. When we got to the bottom of the stairs, the lights suddenly came on & a whole crowd of people yelled "SURPRISE!" My entire family, aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins & all of my friends were standing there! My girlfriend & I were frozen to the spot in a state of shock & embarrassment for what seemed like an eternity. Since then, no-one in my family has planned a surprise party again."

2nd place
"A lady picked up several items at a discount store. When she finally got up to the checkout, she learned that one of the items had no price tag. Imagine her embarrassment when the checker got on the public address system & boomed out for all the store to hear. "PRICE CHECK ON LANE 13. TAMPAX, SUPERSIZE." That was bad enough, but somebody at the rear of the store apparently misunderstood the word "Tampax" for "Thumbtacks". In a very business-like tone, a voice boomed back over the public address system: DO YOU WANT THE KIND YOU PUSH IN WITH YOUR THUMB OR THE KIND YOU BELT IN WITH A HAMMER?"

AND THE WINNER IS ... !
This one happened at a major Australian University in October last year. In a biology lecture, a professor was discussing the high glucose levels found in semen. A young female freshman, raised her hand & asked, "If I understand what you are saying, there is a lot of glucose in male semen, as in sugar?" That's correct." responded the professor, going on to add some statistical data. Raising her hand again, the girl asked, "Then why doesn't it taste sweet?"
After a stunned silence, the whole class burst out laughing, the poor girl turned bright red & as she realised exactly what she had inadvertently said (or rather implied), she picked up her books & without a word walked out of the class & never returned. However, as she was going out of the door, the professor's reply was a classic. Totally straight-faced, he answered her question, "It doesn't taste sweet because the taste-buds for sweetness are on the tip of your tongue & not in the back of your throat!"

LIFE SUX
FUCK U
(the majority of u)

not much progress in project (attachment)
in fact lagging far behind schedule
oni bout 2 out supposed-to-b-200 by end of today (which is rather impossible to accomplish)

sleepy
not enuf of sleep
Zzzz...

not feelin too well...
need to get more well...

tml having dunno wat s3 talk in skool at dunno where
sianz
but good oso... take a break from the attachment...

craving for sushi...

from < < Fun Club > > showing on Channel U Mon 2330
from kang kang
family = father and mother i love you
together = to get her
hero = her O

[fri 050903]
ran around yck central 3 rounds lookin for a comic shop but in vain
- trimed my hair;
- dyed my hair... not sure wat color oso... kinda copper dunno wat..
liked it very much cos it's solely sponsored by my dar n the color matches my eyes... hah;
- conditioned my hair

[sat 060903]
on way to town, saw someone vomit on bus... ack...

[sun 070903]
heard that IAP allowance will b down to 450!!!
accompanied dar to look for her attachment location in the late evening..
almost lost at science park again
this time in the dark

[mon 080903]
reached i2r at 0930
talk w supervisor regarding the pay cut
damnit.. 600 down to 450 is great difference of 150!!!
they nv inform skool
we'll been misled to think that the pay is 600
a wk ago, it was still confirmed to b
now it's like that
sayin that the government fund for the research had been cutted... hence this
i guess i'll hav to let the skool settle this w them
anyway i spurt my unhappiness bout their poor HR rite in the face of echo today
guess i might b marked
hoped i wun b marked
will b working on abstracts AGAIN, probably programming as well
things that require computer
no bench work at all
Zzzz...
oni good thing bout i2r, within 15mins of travellin time from my place
this time unlike the proj period
will b putting in more effort
will b more hardworking =P
overall; boring 4 months to go...
1st day oni
oredi brought back some stuffs to try to do liaoz
quota 500 to reach within 3 1/2 days... suppose to b 100 per day...
Zzzzzzzz... dun think can meet quota by end of this wk

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Groove Coverage VS Jason Chow at SOS Central Mall this Friday, 12th Sep 2003

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Power Rangers Movie!

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Ohhh... wat the hell?!?
result doesnt suit me n doesnt seems to make sense!
but wat the hell... it's juz a quiz...

meaningful story to share
Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living. It was a cowboy's life, a life for someone who wanted no boss. What I didn't realize was that it was also a ministry.

Because I drove the night shift, my cab became a moving confessional. Passengers climbed in, sat behind me in total anonymity, and told me about their lives. I encountered people whose lives amazed me, ennobled me, made me laugh and weep.

But none touched me more than a woman I picked up late one August night.

I was responding to a call from a small brick fourplex in a quiet part of town. I assumed I was being sent to pick up some partiers, or someone who had just had a fight with a lover, or a worker heading to an early shift at some factory for the industrial part of town.

When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window. Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, then drive away.

But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself. So I walked to the door and knocked.

"Just a minute," answered a frail, elderly voice.

I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie.

By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.

"Would you carry my bag out to the car?" she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked lowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.

"It's nothing," I told her. "I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated."

"Oh, you're such a good boy," she said.

When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, then asked, "Could you drive through downtown?"

"It's not the shortest way," I answered quickly.

"Oh, I don't mind," she said. "I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice."

I looked in the rearview mirror. Her eyes were glistening.

"I don't have any family left," she continued. "The doctor says I don't have very long."

I quietly reached over and shut off the meter. "What route would you like me to take?" I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been allroom where she had gone dancing as a girl. Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, "I'm tired. Let's go now."

We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.

Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.

I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

"How much do I owe you?" she asked, reaching into her purse.

"Nothing," I said.

"You have to make a living," she answered.

"There are other passengers," I responded.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.

"You gave an old woman a little moment of joy," she said. "Thank you."

I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.

I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly, lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?

On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life. We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware - beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.

People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel.

hmmm... really? it seems like some dun. they might not even care.. r they people?...

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olympics [killer sports]

went off to Phuture last nite
pretty fun... mayb too long nv chiong
dar, ruichen, zuoyi, sue, kenny, emman, kim hup, yixiong, gerard, bernard, kevin etc etc n dunno who else were there
well... 1st time finally to a place tat plays hip hop rather the usual frequent hangouts that play techno
dawn over @ playgrd at zion rd
tiring day...
sleepin n sleepin n still feel like doing more sleepin

exams over
everyone's out to play
i juz wanna stay home sleep
Zzz...

+ no mood
+ i'm sooo tired
+ i wanna dance all night long
= mixed feelings

clubbing?
mayb not today
mayb tml
mayb day after tml
mayb day after after tml
mayb next wk
mayb no

kakis needed...

go clubbing?
jio me
might consider
on a/c tat my wallet agree too
tsk tsk

mood: despair

me: someone i dun understand
me: someone i hate

genom IS a killer
miracle is the ONLY thing i WISH for

thanx dear for rushin over to send me her genom notes n soup @ 2300 [020903]
gonna study hard!!!
1st go catch some sleep for the up-coming battle...
will b waking up at 0200
Zzz...

[something to add on]
had big breakfast too!
she rushed to buy for me before i reached her place
though i waited os the house for a while...

Are you drinking the right type of tea?

1. People who use their "brain" to work or students who study
hard day and night - should drink more Chrysanthemum Tea.

2. People who need a lot of body energy to work or those people
that do a lot of exercise everyday - should drink Wu Loong Tea.

3. People who travel on a bike or work in dirty and poluted
places - should drink Green Tea.

4. For those people who likes to sit down all day long and not
doing anything even exercising --- must drink Green Tea and Flower Tea.

5. People who smoke and drink a lot of alcoholic drinks --- should
drink more Green Tea.

6. Carnnivore ( those people who must eat meat at least once a day, or
feel sick or not feeling well --- try to drink some Wu Loong Tea.

7. Those people who go to the washroom too often or too less ---
should drink more Honey Tea

8. People with high cholesterol and high blood pressure --- Wu
Loong Tea, Green Tea.

9. Those who work with computers everyday --- need to drink a Lot of
Tea (any tea will do). Whenever you are working with the computer,
you should make some tea, drink it when you are free.

Drinking Tea is healthy, it can protect and prevent the harmful
ultraviolet light from harming us (when using computer).

Furthermore, it can also cure us when we are tired and help making our
body feel fresh again.