books... notes...
makin me fall asleep!!...Zzzz

in skool now...
studied more than yesterday n the day b4.. feelin bored...
now at library 2nd flr... bloggin n reading ppl's blog...
a site for myself to visit when i'm back home:
proud to be an asian!
saw it from lianne's blog

juz recieve call from IMH.. haha... tomolo going down to pay the doctor a visit... LOL

early morning recieve bad news... her grandma passed away...
realise the happenings in life's quite unexpected... u duno watz gonna happen the next second...
my grandma oso passed away less than a month ago... in fact oni 25 days ago... but it seems quite some time ago...

life's short!
treasure the present...
look towards for the future...
the past?
well...
keep the good memories...
learn from past mistakes...
the rest mayb juz hide in the shoebox

- cr@pi-write from dev!|v!�

go library suppose to study... but oso din seem to do much... late noon go pa pool...
guess betta buck up... cos i promise someone i will...
late evening time while lookin thru the project list again decidin last confirmation wat to do... bout to call my proj partner, then recieve sms from him.. sayin he'll b gettin engaged... was stunned!! nbz..
din realise it was a PRANK til he ask bout the month! nbz... kena duaz!! hah..
send the same msg to quite a lot of my frenz...
conclusion: stephanie, cherie, callyn, leroy, yingli, pat, peishan, ah toh, liyan n err... who else were not dumb after all!! hah got scolding even!
but someone wif name starting R...
or known as Tari of Nargothrond (her name shall be protected) is not that well...wat should i say?... hah...

today go skool oni study abit
after lunch ended up watching "Dead Poets Society" with ryan
it's a pretty not bad movie hah.. doh my ang moh bo ho n bo subtitles...
but still can understand it n pretty like it
jas say surprise that i'll watch this kind of show, expectin i'll watch chinese kungfu show...
duhzZ... helo! i choose movies that i like wan k... not any thing oso watch hor!
after watching when back to study... awhile oso knock out...
jialat! reach home til now oso neber study much

3rd yr project find partner until kena blame here n there... sianz... duhz

surfin around blogs, come across reb's blog featuring... "wat's ur elf name?"
hah...
my elven name is Mahtan Narmolanya...
err... how to pronounce?...
my hobbit name is Falco Deepdelver of Brockenborings...
wat the ****?!?... it's way tooooooo long!!
guess i'd rather be Victor...

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lives for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

headache over which broadband service to get....
singnet? or pacnet? or singnet? or pacnet?
headache headache...

now going to skool... to study...
who going?

should i say it's yesterday
or should i say it's today
if it's today, the date is already diff...
if it's yesterday, my day hasnt end yet... still here typing crap!

morning 9+ woke up by SOMEONE! (u know who u r hor!!) cos she's lookin for ms black n she tot i'm already in skool... well... i was still in dreamland...Zzzz

went open house, n... i was thought to be a more responsible guy (compliment?), cos i'm older than the rest.. n had gone thru army... err... well... no comments... but juz try my best, since got ppl so look up on me! LOL
tried 2f04 "home-made/lab-made" chocolate... ok... juz like normal chocolate..
did henna tattoo!
ryan make a biohazard on my right hand (not enuf standard...but thanx to ryan, anyway)...
i did a ugly-supposed-to-be-scorpion-thingie on my left (honestly, look much more worse than ryan's art! LOL)

after open house, went downtown to makan b4 going jam x to watch jeremy/reb/eugene/eman/astrid's sis final round...

cherie asked: did u dye ur hair urself?
*nOdZ nOdZ*
cherie asked: so r the patches behind intentionally?
*nOdZ nOdZ*
hmmm.. really intentionally to highlight... but it turns out to be patches... wun bother bout it at the moment... mayb when mood to cut it comes, then i'll cut... but i'm thinking of sporting my hair long.... hmm... watever... see how


then went jam x, they did pretty ok,...
well, though they din get in the top 3 but it's quite good enuf...
guys, (if u read this)... dun b dishearten, u did a good job!! �

jam x was pretty fine.. think most bands were performing well, except for 2 weird bands... that... err... got no clue wat they trying to do..
one of which is the so called band from fms of np... but at least 2 guys of the band definitely look older than me.. too old to look like teenage np students.. they look more like part time students ( i guess)... intially i tot how come got ah pek perform!?! LOL... n this guy in white t n black dunno-is-coat-or-tuxedo is confident enuf to shake his fat butt in front of so many audience.. he seems to be err... overdoing his singing actions (i guess).. but really admire his daringness/confidence/thick-skinness...
the other band was singing papa roach song... well, mayb i not so much used to enjoyin this kind of musik... wat it seems to me was that they r juz roaring... think i can do as well as them.. LOL...

reach home around 2300... watch the black sq box till around this time.. then here i m typing this...
wat boring life!!
should go to sleep soon...

cinderella not feeling well... wish/hope/pray she get well soon

lyon actually wanted to take photo of the flower
but i actually wanted to avoid appearing in the photo
BUT it turn out to be...

WAN FLOWER???

This is a true story that happened in Japan. In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan tear open the wall. Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls. When tearing down the walls, he found that there is a lizard stuck there
because a nail from outside got stuck into one of its feet. He sees this, feels pity and at the same time curious, as when he check the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built. What happened? The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years! In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is not an easy task. Then he remembered, how this lizard survived for 10 years without moving a single step - the feet was nailed! So he stop the work and observe the lizard, what is it eating?
Later, don't know from where appears another lizard, with food in its mouth... AHHH! He is stunted. What kind of love is this? For the lizard that was stuck by a nail, another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years..

And stop wondering the relationship between them: family, friends, lovers, brothers, sisters...... As the technology advances, our access to information became faster and faster. But the distance between the human beings, is it getting closer as well? NEVER ABANDON YOU LOVED ONES.

well.. thot of not comin to skool today but here i m at blk 23 at the computer lab...
she had ask me to help her get something from skool... so here m i
need to print out the whole stack of yr 3 project.. so here m i
she's not feeling well.. hmm... mayb would go find her after that
now going to blk 40.. to see how the open house is going on...

think 1st time participate @ NP open house...
feelin weird weird.. see so mani young kids!! haha...
actualli today not much ppl visit oso.. guess the crowd will probably b more on fri n sat...
learn some twistin balloons skills today...
seems to be supposed to be rather ez.. but i took ages juz to get 6 balls together! DAMN!!
so far think wat i can do better is twistin doggies... n "SHAFT" (din try but SHOULD V. EZ!!) hah

need to replenish my "beauty sleep"... tml not going liaoz...

Jurgen Vries ft. CMC - The Opera Song

I have a vision
That no one can imagine
I can see things
That no one sees

I have the wisdom
Knowledge of the future
I'll take you to the end of time
With me

Deep down inside me
Way beyond the silence
I can hear things that no one hears

Questions unanswered
Better left unspoken
I'll take you to the very end
With me

And it's a brave new world
That we live in
As we lose ourselves
Tonight

We have no control
Of our feelings
As we journey to the corners
Of our mind

thoughts from a wanna-b-prince

i didn't smoke bcos i miss you...
but not bcos i dun i miss you anymore...
it's bcos i miss you so much that i lose myself...

i miss you

cr@pi-write from dev!|v!�

nbz... juz got shocked from reb's colorblind test... darn... was ready for some scare... but still blur blur fell for it!!! kaoz...

today.. err.. or izzit yesterday... brought my new "levi's" wallet to skool!! but unfortunately let marcus n ewan saw the contents.. which include my i.c.
marcus gave the comment that i look much more decent than now... haha... i look beng meh?? err... izzit the t i wore today? heh.. the dragon??!... well.. compare to my i.c. photo.. i think now betta leh..

got jas's copy of instru prac for reference.. but till now oso no time for reference.. err.. duno wat the hell hav i been doing all night long... damn... think tomolo then copy liaoz... almost time to ZZZ soon...

so damn mani things to do...
mbio logbk by later..almost close to done yet
cell culture logbk by wk 10...haben start yet
common test coming... got 4 modules...haben start yet
cell culture project duno when due...haben start yet
abc quiz on wed.. haben start yet

thinking of cinderella... couldnt concentrate on anything...

feelin rather upset...
thought of this crap last nite...
feelin bored/sianz/depressed/... etc... wat else to describe my feelings...
i dunno... juz wanna hear from her...
but couldnt get her on the line or sms...dunno wat's wrong
did i say something wrong... or did something wrong...
or she's not feelin well... or juz plainly she wan to avoid me...


I�ve found this kind sweet ger
Who seems to have stepped out of some fable
But I don�t know if I�m meant for her
So confused, I�ve got myself a beer
Tried to avoid this trouble
For nights, I drowned myself in this liquor
That�s doing harm to my liver
Every night, I dream of you, ger
I wish you were right beside me here
You�re the only one who can lead me out of this jumble
Can you do me this big favor?
Please show me the right signal
Give me your hand. I�m your lover
I�ll love you very tender
We can be the best couple
We�re going to live together
Always loving each other
I promise our love will last forever

cr@pi-write from dev!|v!�

a site to visit valentine's day �

jas yesterdae actually mentioned GOLDFISH MEMORY IS ONI 3 SECONDS...DAT'S Y DEY COULD LIVE SO HAPPILY IN A SMALL ROUND BOWL. EVERY TURN DEY FINISH SWIMMIN, DEY SEE A NEW WORLD. she said cherie said that! dun believe!!! check w cherie... err.. dey said the exact same words!!! err.. gonna do reading liaoz to prove them wrong!! hehe...

today klass every1 know their angel n mortal liaoz....
but i oso blur blur lah.. who cares :P
juz still quite curious to know who's dr teo's mortal hehe

<< CREDITS >>
thanx to marcus, daniel, jas, cherie, jenny, peishan n err... who else??
for accompanyin me go west mall look for "u2"... haha
in the end, wild goose chase, never go any thing there for cinderella... *sighZ*
thanx to peishan/leroy/ryan for helpin me for the ?"gel"?...
err... now quite alot ppl know the equation
cinderella=nancy
nancy=cinderella
partial thanx to ewan for recommendin me to get her cookies... "Famous Amos" cookies from town...
but NOT accompanyin me downtown to get it even though he got nothing else betta to do :(

unsuccessful doin my own handicraft for her... ends up givin her gel w her name n cookies... hope she will like them.. somemore sky so good to me, about to reach her workplace, suddenly rain cats & dogs... me endin up gettin wet when meetin her... haha... wonder if she'll be touched by my actions!! LOL now still waitin for confirmation for date... should b goin to get some rest 1st... the whole of last nite cant sleep properly! kaoz.. dunno izzit too excited n too lookin forward to the date....
WAITING IS THE HARDEST THING!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!

yeah
juz finish editin this page �
got a slightly c00ler l00k (i suppose) *snicker*

hmmm... well suppose to do some handicraft for cinderella for valentine's day
but came to realise that even makin stars doesnt seem an ez task
i seems to have fat butter fingers, gettin st00000pid lookin stars instead of nice-l00kin stars...
should b the thoughts that count rite?! hah.. juz hope she does appreciate it

time to go back to my WORK!!!
lookin forward for my date.. lol
wish myself luck

AND reminder to SELF n everybody out there who read this:
dun eat @ clarke quay satay club
TAI LANG BANG HUI ah
(p.s. hokkien bo hor...
translation: kill ppl put fire)
conclusion: day-light robbery .. err.. doh it's nite time... but but... it's still day-light robbery, bandbits surroundin u... no exit out!

ohh... din study enuf for cell culture test today!!
so tough! (cos never study!!) *sighZ* jialat sia! really got to buck up sia!
accompany cherie n company (reb, jenny, jeremy) to @_@ her get tongue pierced!! hah...
amazing that she din cry... same for her sis... hmmm they quite brave wor...
BUT OuCh! i feel the pain for them! i wont wan do pierce for my body AcK
went topshop @ wisma again to eye for that cap.. the response i got was same as jeremy "i look cuter w/o wearing cap".. good then... i'll save for $$ then.. hah
to avoid the peak hour bus crowd n traffic jam, reb suggested take train to city hall... in the end stuck in the damn train for dunno how long.. kaoz.. long time no take mrt... take oni so much problem...
finally arrived @ esplanade to expect a great performance by LMF but *sulkZ* it's a disappointment sia! not even half as good as i've expected
1st time go see jeremy perform @ club Oosh... think is 1st time really @_@ fren's band performance on stage... not bad! mayb 1st time lah, find it ok. anyway is give jeremy face to go @_@ @_@...
JEREMY heard that??! give u face ah!! hah.. ur face BiG ah!! *should paste jeremy's face here"
after that was damn boring...
today smokin' again... damn shouldnt b doing that.. i've promised ppl something...
but all ends well for the day cos i see my Cinderella on my way back @ the interchange!! timing really SWEE SWEE... walk her back home... but miss my last feeder bus ride... i learnt that i actually need bout 20 mins to walk home from her place... n reach home sweaty sticky..
BUT it's FINE...
r e a l l i w i s h s h e c a n b m y g f

iNtErEstiNG!
FWD:

=>Valentine's around the corner....

=>life is a tragedy for those who feel;
=>and a comedy for those who think

=>These are entries to a competition asking for a rhyme with
=>the most romantic first line but least romantic second line:

=>Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss
=>but I only slept with you because I was pissed

=>I thought that I could love no other
=>Until, that is, I met your brother

=>Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you.
=>But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar
=>bowl's empty and so is your head.

=>Of loving beauty you float with grace
=>If only you could hide your face

=>Kind, intelligent, loving and hot
=>This describes everything you are not

=>I want to feel your sweet embrace
=>But don't take that paper bag off of your face

=>I love your smile, your face, and your eyes-
=>Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

=>My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife:
=>Marrying you screwed up my life

=>I see your face when I am dreaming
=>That's why I always wake up screaming

=>My love you take my breath away
=>What have you stepped in to smell this way

=>My feelings for you no words can tell
=>Except for maybe "go to hell"

=>What inspired this amorous rhyme?
=>Two parts vodka, one part lime

woke up @ noon
then went town
on the way, saw THE KETCHUP SONG (ASEREJE) by LAS KETCHUP mtv, (funni dance moves but will it be IN like marcarena was used to be??) group consist of 3-not-very-good-lookin-but-scantily-dressed-gers
watch Shanghai Knights pretty funni show... n Fann Wong... she does make me *drool* (various scene) heh
then went boat quay... took 190.. but miss the bus stop to alight... kaoz.. must b due to chingay (i guess)... hope i'm not that blur :P
had a couple of F.R.E.E drinks hehe... then dance in front of mirror alone cos those ^%#&$ dun wanna dance.. @ the pathetic danceflr w few ppl.. no cai to see... xcept 4 few indies... den a fat guy came along to dance n kept lookin @ me for quite awhile...
wat the F***
DAMN! DO I LOOK GAY??!!??
or m i a good dancer? :P
quite a few other ppl lookin oso but heck... who cares... me wan myself... no find trouble or wat...
wait... wait...... wait......the fat guy still lookin....
dulanz went home...
being bombarded w few PRIMARY 5 MATHS questions by june that total drain me!!! kaoz... now p5 maths oso so tough.. wonder izzit too long never do maths or me rusty liaoz...
derrrrr DO need to consider whether wan to give tuition again liaoz...

oh oh.. 1st time i got FULL marks for something!!!
my mbio quiz got FULL marks 10/10!! haha
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today class playin the ANGEL n MORTAL game thingie...
wonder who my angel is
whereas for my "mortal", realli dunno wat to do sia
haiz
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cute! check it out
happy valentine day
to myself in advance

currently listening to
Blank & Jones Feat Anne Clark - The Hardest Heart

Let the morning sun proclaim
The light of the world
Let the golden day unfurl
On every wave
On every hill

Each angered fist uncurl
Caress the hardest heart
Stir the sweeping earth
Each stone
Each blade of grass

The soul of the world
Ignite a brand day
Let the morning sun proclaim
A brand new start
A brand new way

cinderella juz sms to ask how m i �
at least someone still concern for me �

time soon to study a litt for the mbio quiz tomolo liaoz....

btw surprised that i got a pass for instru!! �

wat the hell has this fuckin world come to?
mornin go up bus 184 wif a few ppl n this not-so-old-man-but-havin-walking-problem-using-a-walking-stick. the bus is packed due to the peak hour to skool, n the poor man wasnt offered any seats... the ppl sittin down were fuckin healthy.. in the end, it's a pregnant lady who stood up to offer her seat to him... was eyeing a not-bad-looking ger, but she oso never bother to offer her seat.
1st lesson of the day learnt: babes w/o a kind heart r UGLY!

had ping pong session today wif cherie, jenny, leroy, eugene n marcus. my skill of ping pong is still juz beginner stage, oni know roughly how to serve n hit the ball... (really a gemini: jack of all trade; master of none)
had roti prata from canteen 2
had chocolate milkshake from canteen 2 again which costs $1.20 n is TOO SWEET(leroy said, i tried to "wink" @ the auntie, that's y i had such "NICE SWEET shake) n it AWFULLY SUX! mcdonald had the best milkshake but no more liaoz... *sighZ*
2nd lesson of the day learnt: WARNING: chocolate milkshake from canteen 2 CANT make it, AWFUL, SUX, TOO SWEET...

go nydc @ holland v
had chocolate elephanicino or watever-it-is-called which is again AWFUL!!! (only consist of a mug of chocolate milk, a teaspoonful of whipped cream, a lesser-than-a-teaspoonful of so-called "hershey's chocolate sauce", n plenty of ice! cost $6.50)
reached home wif stomach upset
3rd lesson of the day learnt: WARNING: too much chocolate that r not nice chocolate (plus prata) might gif stomach upset

4th lesson of the day learnt: stay away from ALL gers with bfs
lesson learnt from someone whom i cant disclose his identity!! haha...
(well, anyway, actually i had learnt this lesson the hard way in the past, getting myself hurt quite a litt bad.. haha )

meet Cinderella on my way to skool in the morn! quite surprised n delighted to see someone whom i've missed and not seen for so long... n shocked to see her wearin so formally �
but upon reaching skool, sianz liaoz...
kena dua... no instru.. ends up going library watch show... (1st time borrowin tape.. LOL.. after so mani yrs in NP... this time is 1st time!) watch ANGEL DUST (jap thriller... quite cool but endin rather disappointin)
and for the rest of the day is boring... esp. Cell Culture Prac.. realli got no clue wat's going on...
damn tiring... (should b due to insufficient sleep...)

Groove Coverage - God is a Girl

Remembering me discover and see,
all over the world
she is known as a girl,
to those who are free
the mind shall be key,
forgotten as the past
cause history will last!

God is a girl wherever you are,
do you believe it can you recieve it,
God is a girl what ever you say,
do you believe it can you recieve it,
God is a girl however you live,
do you believe it can you recieve it,
God is a girl she's only a girl,
do you believe it can you recieve it?

She wants to shine forever in time,
she is so driven she is always mine,
clearly and free she wanted to be,
a part of the future a girl like me,
there is a sky illuminating us,
someone is out there
that we truly trust,
there is a rainbow for you and me,
a beautiful sunrise eternaly.

well... everything settled...

reached home @ late noon, real tired!
rested for few hours... (wonder if i will be able to get some sleep later... slept so much juz now...)

had a long conversation with Cinderella... thanx so much for keepin me company... (when i'm not very good)...
(such nice ger hard to find...)

r e a l l i w i s h s h e c a n b m y g f

gimme a hard stab on my thigh
see if i would tear n cry
or would i juz drop n die

where had all my feelings gone
will i still rave again
when i hear dis song

is there anything out there
dat could take away my pain

recieved news in the morning that grandma passed away...
having mixed feelings... *confused*