life is

had worked 3hrs OT yesterday

had no where to go, so head home

had something terrible again, a repition of last last night

有點欲哭無淚的感覺

had juz finished watching

last nite
&

juz now

[ridicously_insane_spine-chilling_not-for-weak-heart_i-had-watched_movies]: Ichi the Killer, Battle Royale, Battle Royale II, Another Heaven, Double Vision

[ridicously_insane_spine-chilling_not-for-weak-heart_i-will-not-watched_movies]: Suicide Club (upon watch the scenes where the mother slices her own hand & the roll many human skins stitched together, i couldnt take it)

[ridicously_insane_spine-chilling_not-for-weak-heart_i-want-to-watch_movies]: Oldboy, Versus, Audition, Uzumaki

had juz finished listening to

&

juz now

decided to delete Fuck The World, though it's good for frustration, but it's abit too much extreme maybe. it does sort of drive me crazy

decided to drop a few lines on the blog

had wanted to go out for some fresh air

had tried calling some friends out

had decided since no one's companying me, i'll juz off my phone, n try to wish for some peacefulness

wishing for peace n solace
anyway in s'pore, could i find such place?

there's juz so much disappointment, so much sadness, so much anger

feeling torn.
feeling broken.
feeling shattered.
feeling disintergrated.

*a shattered heart still beats and life must move on*