"When you want something real bad and you close your eyes and ask for it, God's the guy who ignores you"

"Just because people want to eat the burger doesn't mean they want to meet the cow!"

�Why do I gotta be the guy that tells the kids there�s no Santa Claus?�

�Never give a woman your credit card!�

mixed up feelings

attended sec sch friend's wedding on sunday
1st official wedding i attended myself though
sort of like a gathering to catch up wif some sec sch friends
will b booked on 26th Dec 05 to help out wif another wedding :)

today's on leave n same for tml
things to settle
standing order for today
n medical appt for tml

back home to rest after going camp
mum told me something shocking *gasp*
too shocking to write here anyway
gone to watch the island in the evening
previously had sent scan of my id card to alan
had sent to the wrong email
glad tat it bounced back
if not the results could b disastrous

movies

the island
good show
entertaining
betta among the recent shows like war of the worlds, fantastic four, sin city

7 swords
i'll b keen to watch

standing order

fine tat i wasnt fine for the charge
juz got a warning letter
booked RT for december
hope tml medical checkup will b positive
positive as in, MO will recommend me for downgrade

-_-"

the place seems like a gathering place for the reservists personnels
they greet each other like "hey, u oso kena ah!"
i havent been to any ICT nor exercise yet so i dunno them ba

along way back from camp, was chatting wif the bus driver, came to realise tat the PES status will soon follow us wherever we go after ORD, which means employers will b able to know whether we are "healthy" when we go for interviews, n tat could mean tat medical status would b reflected, hence ... ppl who chao keng might ...

happy / sad

happy @ work?
the madman is gone for good
his last day, signed his stuffs, packed his stuffs n begone..
hope he will b working fine at the other company, juz worried tat he might disturb/pester our company
the burmese fella is on leave.. today n tml n tuesday.. tuesday i wun b around though.
havent been so peacefully quiet in the lab for a long time since they r here
1 down, 1 to go

sad in life (again)?
upset..
m i forgotten?
tat's all? no more?
..........................

friend in need?
i cant help much too
think i have done my best
accompany him drinking
din dare to get too drunk either myself
he's kinda high liaoz.. gotten another friend to look after him
i cant help myself
i'm feeling down myself

Do u Know......

In a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go. It is as hard as breaking a crystal because you'll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go feel not the pain of parting: it is they who stay behind that suffer, because they are left with memories of a love that was meant to be, a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end of a relationship, we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem, but that's the way love goes. That's the drama, the bittersweet and the risk of falling in love. After all, nothing is constant but change. Everything will eventually come to its end without us knowing when, without us knowing how, without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we want to but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come not as a single spy but in battalion. It seems that everywhere you go, everything you do, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of him/her.
It's like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing.
Just imagine, there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art, but letting go entails special skills sparkled with a considerable space and time. Time heals all wounds but it takes a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part. Not all love stories end with "...and they live happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of circumstances beyond our control. We have to suffer if it would mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk. It's something we can't control, something we had to live up.

It's over. He's/she�s gone. But life has to go on. Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited in the night, songs will be sung in harmony, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday."

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go"

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind

Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind.
If you base your relationship on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not TOYED around.
Love her for who she is.
Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she will stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever.
Don't substitute her for anyone else; they are just unique n their own ways.

Love whole-heartedly. She sacrificed a lot for you so you'd better really treasure her. She could have just got up & date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all because of love. So love her guys, not play with her.

Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her. Don't cause a strain in the relationship; you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be. I've been there & I know how it feels.

Don't expect perfection from her. She's the only one in the world & she's done the best she could.

Like another girl while you're in a relationship?
Then I think it's time you remain single for a while.
Don't go around breaking girls' hearts, it's the most tragic thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide anything from her. If you want her to tell you everything, do the same. Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling", how it would feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be faithful, enough is enough.

Socialize only when you're single. You socialize & flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams. Get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible.
Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her.
Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always get the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.

Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talks only apply for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.
Isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.

Promise her & make sure you never break it.
Swear to her & make sure you keep it. Pledge your love to her & her alone.

Loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. That's love. Give her your heart, your life, your everything.

Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.

Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as per normal, she'd die. It her heart that you've broken, how would you ever know how she feels?

Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, and love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.

She chose you because she believes that you can fulfill your promise. Win her heart & love her over.
Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends".
Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you.
Respect her for the way she is, never despise her & never mistreat her, never even think of toying with her...

paranoid; frustration

the madman is still not gone.. it wasnt his last day yesterday.. supposed to b today, but he applied leave for the whole day, so postponed till tomorrow.. mad? it's kinda mean to call ppl mad.. but it does seems to involve lives.. my colleagues n i were rather worried bout our lives, our safety.. for "mad man kills legally".. hope he'll b able to get his work permit for his new workplace, worry tat if he din manage to get the job, he might go crazy. worry tat he'll stalk me, kill me, slice me.. *shudder* *shivers down the spine*
the Mian-dian (??) guy is still getting on my nerves

work

it's been pretty sucky recently
damn sucky
not bcos of bz work.. work was fine
other than last last last wkend stocktake, burnt one wkend.. but it's fine.. there's OT pay anyway.. some fella colleagues burnt 2 wkends. but i oni had one.. :( i could get more OT pay. damn..
juz finished wif the OBA stuffs.. leaving more workplace wif glowy hands... i will glow under UV light! .. wonder if my lungs glow too.. real hazardous workplace.. dyeing -> dying.. PEG, fine dyestuffs, acids, alkalis, my thumb is feeling kinda weird after contact wif the pH 4 solution!, contact wif NaOH, n acetic acid as well.. arghh..
these r not the worst
last wk actually had a bloody m'sian guy, he's mad finding trouble.. too much to mention.. but he agitated me after pushing me (accidentally?), n i called him to walk properly, tat started the quarrel, say tat he has already kan wo bu shuang for a long time.. wtf.. i've seldom talk to him, say tat i'm bullying foreigners.. wtf.. there's so much m'sians, china, india, burmese even.. challenge me to fight in JB, wtf.. crazy.. he's insane.. since the day he work here, he's been talking to himself, laughing to himself.. now it's more scarier when he told production ppl, he's going to slice someone into pcs.. he had gotten so much trouble wif so many ppl, glad enuf it's his last day working.. had resigned himself.. good to have him gone. nevertheless, it's still pretty scary if he stalk me after work..
the other fucker is this burmese? r&d technician WH.. fucking 30+ over or 40+ yrs old, behaving like a kid.. he's been working here for quite several months.. anyone working wif him, will get pissed off wif him.. both this fuckers actually complain tat i treated them differently.. crazy idiots. when i dislike someone.. i wun talk to them. simple as tat.. n they say tat i talk to him wif different tones.. wtf, i wun even wan to waste my breath talking to him.. been told to change attitude towards WH, i've tried my best.. it's enuf.. this is the limit.. i've told my head everything i m pissed wif him. i duno wat's gonna happen.. i dun care anymore.. i juz cant suppress my anger any longer..
thinking bout it n typing it here pissed me off!

one month ago

slightly more than a month ago was my bday, pretty memorable, pretty lonesome... kinda mixed feelings
advanced dining wif the "close" colleagues
lucky enuf, it falls on a Sat.. half day work, hence din intentionally take a day leave, anyway, it's juz bday, nothing in particular for me to waste my leave ba.
pretty surprised to recieve a bday cake wif my lab colleagues to sing a bday song, then cut the cake.. these were things i had nv experienced.. (honestly speaking i cant recall having more than 1 person singing the song, n me cutting the cake ever)
lunch treated by joyce at sushi tei.. expensive meals.. i would feel the ache in my pockets if i m paying.. haha
followed by ktv, then pool
night was at X, din really wanted to go there.. i dun like such places
supposed to be treated wif chivas but it seems like i wasnt the one drunk.. i was barely high.. surprised enuf one of the ermmm girl there went over to clarke quay to get me a slice of chocolate cake :) yummy.. another round of bday song..

???

feel like blogging
but not much time
feel like blogging bout my bday "celebration" which WAS couple of weeks ago.. but no mood.. haha.. irony
my comp is pretty down anyway.. not anyway pretty up :(

be back to edit this post soon

tired from yesterday's 0900 till 1800 meeting/workshop
tired from today's 0900 till 1800 "workout"/stockcheck
tired from hearing about needing to be back to continue today's stockcheck from 0900 till dunno wat time
tired