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havent been into clubs neither pubs neither drinking neither smoking for quite some time, cos i know once in there, smokes n liqour will be continuously poured into my body non-stop out of control. i hav never been able to hold my liqour content well. well, it's worse of course.
jio my buddies out last night, being feeling vexed
- my girls application is still on pending status for almost 8 months
- my work
- my salary
- my career advancement / prospects
- myself / my attitude / my performance / my weakness
- my knowledge in chemistry
- my debts

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friend is down due to his problem. i dunno how to comfort him. he's out of himself lately. blame the x-devil <- me. i walked out. he walked in.
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i will avoid drinking sessions. might make guest appearance occassionally. cos splunge of money. eventually finally ultimately, i might b puking my food, drinks, gastric/stomach juices, money out.
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oooOO free show of a pair of ang moh @ back alley @ somewhere of boat quay >:)
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"Dead after 8 hours on laptop" overworking after 8 hours non-stop juz to earn more dough
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stressed at work
over 2 years plus almost 3 years at work, no change in position, pay is barely enough, without OT despite working hard, worse of all, "bonus" is pathetically less than 13th month pay
a idiot in the purchasing dept w high diploma, currently doing marketing degree, cmi, cannot perform (i think), blur ass, only hahaha his mistakes away, had been promoted to supervisor... i admit i m jealous.. very very jealous. cos over here in the lab dept, i admit there r experienced ppl hindering me. haiz. worse of all, boss intend to employ 4 degree holders into the company. me a diploma fear for my stand, where will i stand, where will i go. current weakness evaluation (1) introvert, (2) not strong enough in chemistry. therefore cannot advanced to sales yet. :S got 6 months to brush my chemistry knowledge. that ass, who mayb can bullshit much more, without technical/chemistry knowledge/skills will b going to the sales/marketing dept. sooooooo if i were to join later, i will b under him? damn no. sorry i cant work for ppl who dun deserve my respect. u wan me to fight wif u side by side in the war, u hav to know how to fight urself, else fuck off, i dun need a burden on me.
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enuf crap