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lotsa of screwed up @ work since my 8 days worth of long CNY new year vacation/break!
usually spent half the day (from morning till lunchtime) doing unaccomplished tasks. hope things get betta soon. they betta be! looking forward to the position of asst supervisor in bout half year time. heard i'll b asst trainer soon :)
well.. being feeling down.. real down..

lonely 1402

Love is Like an Addiction
http://www.the-scientist.com/2005/2/14/20/1

1502 was the most memorable anyway. had a date =) nice breakfast cum lunch which includes appetitzer, main course, wif champange-like looking drink. with cookies n card. i can see the effort n love put in them. noon time catching constantine, pretty good show, i think. tea @ conrad lobby w free voucher. everything is memorable. forever, i hope.
last wkend - my 1st own overseas trip to 1st time visit @ m'sia. pretty fine exposure though it's a short trip. the night spent over the hotel (or rather motel) is a great exposure too.. regret terribly... trip was proposed to b on my long holiday break but i havent got my passport :P hence a visit to sentosa instead n postpone the trip)
things r getting pretty terrible. dunno how to carry on w these terrible feelings. i miss her so very much. yet nothing i can do bout it. guess i should put in more effort in my work. these feelings could b affecting my work concentration.

had some beer yesterday at the ktv w my colleagues. not enuf booze. too mani sad songs. dice game was quite interesting / addictive though.

i need to club tomorrow. need to dance. need to drink. need to feel high. to forget some things for a while. few seconds/minutes/hours at least.

i need to get a tan on the day after tomorrow.

had cut n pasted this from my friendster. well.. it's sad

She was not beautiful

Nothing about her was extraordinary

Nothing about her made her stand out in a crowd.

She grew up in a family of six and being the eldest
she learned responsibility at an early age.



As she grew stronger and brighter, she instilled a
sort of light and cheer to whomever she

met.

She was not beautiful, but she made others feel
better about themselves.

She meets a rebel boy who thinks he is all man
befriending him, she teaches him.

She teaches him how to read and a little boost,
the ' man' needed to go to college,



They become fast friends and she fell fast in love
with her rugged handsome student.

The ' man' then finds himself in love with a girl

A girl who was so beautiful

Her hair was a hallow of light around her

Her eyes the bluest blue of the ocean.



' Like an angel' he tells his tutor

' like a beautiful angel.'

The girl swallows a lump at her throat



She was not beautiful

She did not posses the heart of the one he loved,
but she did not care.

As long as he was happy, she would be happy,
or
so she tried to.



She helped write the most beautiful letters to his
angel

All the time visioning it was she herself recieving
those very letters.

And so the girl helped him choose the right
clothes, say the right words, and buy the right
gifts
for his angel.

His angel brought him much joy and much pain to
the girl who cried behind her smiles.

But that never stopped her from giving more than
she will ever receive.



Then one day, all of h--- broke loose

The angel he loved left him for another msn

A richer more successful man

The boy was stunned

He was so hurt, he did not speak for days

The girl went to him

He cried on her shoulder and she cried with him.

He was hurt and she was too.



Time went by and so wounds heal

The boy realizes something about his friend/tutor

Something he never realized before

How her laughter sounded heavenly and how her
smiles brightened up the darkest days, or how
simply beautiful she looked to him!



Beautiful. This plain, simple girl was beautiful to
him

And he began to fall.

Fall so in love with this beautiful girl

On one day, he picked up all his courage to see
her

He walked to her house, nervous, and fidgeting,

Running his thoughts over and over his head.



He was going to tell her how beautiful she was to
him

He was going to tell her how wonderfully in love
he
was with her.

He knocked. No one was home.

The next day, he found out that the beautiful girl he
fell in love with had a brain tumor that put her into
a
coma.

The doctors were grim and the family decided to
let her go.



One final time he got to see her

He held her hand

He stroked her hair and he cried for this beautiful
girl.

He cried, but it was too late.

The beautiful girl was buried and the heavens
broke.

Out a beautiful spring shower, a cry for their loss.

She was the most beautiful girl in the world and
she had taught the rebel boy-man to love and
what
it is to be loved.

She was the most beautiful girl in the world.



Look around. Isn't there a lot of plain faces?

Take a good look. A real good look, or you might
just miss out that beautiful person.

Forever.

I should know.... wouldn't I?

If you had a heart, you would send this to as much
people as possible to keep the memory of this
person alive. If you don't, then your pretty ugly
deep inside, so send this. If you don't, you'll also
loose the love of your life, so you don't really have
a choice

cny

i've been pissed for a long time. i'm been fucking pissed for a long time. yeah. thanx to him. i juz got pisser.
BUT i shouldnt let tat muthafucka ruin my new year ahead.

oh well.. nothing eventful yet for the 1st 2 days of cny.
1st day @ home. had invitation to go ktv but i decided my voice is still coarse like a toad and coughing from eating buak kwa n sniffing megawhite @ work. (btw, did i mention my nostrils had turned blue tat day @ work? nope. i din. work's health hazardous!) ended up watching a little bit of moulin rouge. not yet finished till now though..
2nd day went visting grandma for few hours. [she said something crappy.. dunno whether u all will come anot... oh crap!] feeling bored.. real bored. wanted to go out. alan jio go pa pool but decided it's waste of money. so here i m ended up @ home as well. alan ended up at devil's bar. nice place. wish i m there.
i'm oni starting work on the 8th day. 2 days down. 5 more to go.
later today will b visiting SA ppl. looking forward to it.
sat prob going sentosa
sun prob no event yet again
mon yeah.. sadly no event planned
tue prob gonna watch racing strips n constantine. looking forward to watch constantine n seoul raiders. decided to spend more valuable money on constantine hopefully. well for seoul raiders, i prob gonna give it up watching at the cinema since i had sort of overspent this month (though i've got increment n bonus :))cos my ex-supervisor offer tat she's got the vcd. hopefully can get from her. tat show has got lotsa chiobu :D oh well.. sad thing bout chinese movies are tat the original vcd comes out not long after the movie is been shown on theatre. juz to mention kungfu hustle. it's a disappointment. not tat it's not nice. but i had watch twice on the cinema n the arrival of it on vcd it has come. damnit! but to the programme i might b having on tue.. prob after movie, then tea, then marina to walk around.
then wed back to work! ack

stupid female mosquitoes population seems to have increase recently! mani of them around! there was a day when i killed 5 in the morn!!

hey muthafucka

u should b alone!
yeah.. if u come stumbling upon my blog n read, yeah i'm referring to u, muthafucka!
but u might not know i'm referring u anyway, cos u dun really know me, neither do i really know u. but who cares, i dun give fuckin' damn to know u betta.
for wat i know of u tat's impt is tat u snatch my precious from me, n right now, u r fucking wasting our time!